Maybe you've noticed that I no longer update this account. Until the time I choose to do so again, anyone interested can follow me on tumblr: [link]
Sometimes I even post art.

Cheers!

I will begin by apologizing profusely to everyone who has been trying to contact me through dA in anyway in say, oh, the past few months. For some reason, I haven't found time for the internet. Which is odd, since I haven't really had much else to do either... Now the time has come to correct that, so, to start off; for everyone who has commented or faved or such -- a big smashing THANK YOU! Even though I haven't replied I appriciate every single fav, really. Makes me happy inside.
Hopefully, I will also find some time to draw, so that I can update. I don't even want to check when my last update was... >.<

Leaving for warmer lands tomorrow, and writes this to wish you all a happy what-ever-you-get-up-to. Hopefully I'll get back with some energy pumping through my veins again, beacuse I'm tired of running on air. There are a lot of things I ought to deal with, but curse it, they can all wait. I damn well think I deserve a couple of weeks of peace. I'll be thinking of you guys! Promise to take care of each other and have fun without me! (Of course, not too much fun, I might get jealous.) Oh, and happy new year too!

This, was a GOOD IDEA. Really.

1. I love the bittersweet
2. I love change
3. I love the thrill of a good story coming together
4. I love when I see people do what's right
5. I love forgiveness
6. I love when people actually see me
7. I love the sun peeking out behind the clouds
8. I love feeling that history is alive
9. I love imagining the lives of those who passed this place before me
10. I love when I find it in me not to care about results
11. I love when I find something worthwhile in me
12. I love when I feel I have helped
13. I love reading
14. I love finding new worlds
15. I love freedom
16. I love belonging
17. I love art
18. I love being in love
19. I love the idea of love to tiny, tiny bits
20. I love doing... ungodly things
21. I love how I'm still too embarrassed to even spell it out
22. I love idealism
23. I love cynicism
24. I love silly, dry humour
25. I love those moments when everything seems to be drawn together into some unexplainable right, and just knowing I'm alive makes me go crazy with joy
26. I love building a soul
27. I love my family
28. I love my friends
29. I love building a life
30. I love feeling safe
31. I love dreaming
32. I love when I see the young girl in my mother
33. I love when I see respect and care in my little sister  
34. I love words that sing
35. I love arguing
36. I love prying at the edges of what I think I know
37. I love picking the pieces back up
38. I love when you're done and you realize; "I made it"
39. I love feeling beautiful
40. I love feeling sexy
41. I love feeling intelligent
42. I love being a silly romantic
43. I love having silly romantic daydreams
44. I love it when I get away with being clueless
45. I love being close to another person
46. I love feeling trusted
47. I love feeling trust
48. I love being taken care of
49. I love when I feel what I do isn't just enough, but actually good
50. I love pulling all-nighters and then being all giggly about it the next day
51. I love sitting on the edge of my bed desperately clenching a book in my hands in the middle of the night, with all sense of time lost long ago
52. I love waking up with the sun
53. I love the first days of spring
54. I love the fragile green of the birch trees in May
55. I love the first frost covering everything with tiny stars in November
56. I love the circular patterns in the asphalt you see when you walk looking down at your feet
57. I love snow and starlight
58. I love the advent lights in all the windows when the year is as its darkest
59. I love seeing the effort and care and love poured into true works of art
60. I love faith
61. I love hearing the songs about hope and know that people mean it
62. I love coyote
63. I love knowing that the way cannot be walked if you try
64. I love the thought of growing old
65. I love the thought of having a family of my own one day
66. I love learning
67. I love the silence of the countryside
68. I love the energy of the city
69. I love pumping my body to exhaustion
70. I love to feel strong
71. I love to feel able and fit
72. I love to play the protector
73. I love the revolution
74. I love anarchy
75. I love the smell of moss and wet forest
76. I love the endless pine forests up north
77. I love living in a place where it gets dark at 3pm in winter
78. I love people
79. I love crying in someone's arms
80. I love potatoes
81. I love looking up at the sky when it snows
82. I love bathing naked outdoors
83. I love picking blueberries and eat them straight away
84. I love walking past my old school knowing I never have to go there again
85. I love walking, alone
86. I love not feeling lonely when I'm alone
87. I love being a geek
88. I love videogame storytelling
89. I love feeling clean
90. I love dressing up in weird clothes
91. I love being someone not like everybody else
92. I love singing out loud
93. I love dancing
94. I love dressing up when I'm alone
95. I love miming to the music in front of the mirror
96. I love drawing
97. I love when my drawings come out the way I imagined
98. I love libraries
99. I love books
100. I love life

Also, I'm alive, and tomorrow I  might even do something about the mess that is my DA accont.

Since I've got innternet ON THE BUS(seriously, technology is amazing), I'll use this to ask my firends a quetion.

Är det någon av er som har kultur och idehistora redovisning på fredag? Och som skulle kunna tänka er att byta med mig? Och göra den imorrn istället? Jag är nämligen inte här då, om ni innte hört det än. Om inte, så kan ni väl iaf säga till Barbro att jag frågat er, eftersom jag lovade att jag skulle göra det...
Tack!

I'm ill.
I've spent the entire morning feeling like I'm about to throw up. Yuck. Felt this way this monday too, but I though it had passed. Stupid idiot body. Stupid idiot autumn.
Ok, so I didn't really mean that.

I suppose it's my own fault, anyways, letting myself get all stressed out. >.< I need to improve my planning-skills. Anyway, I wanted to apologize to everone whom I might have ignored due to inordinate amounts of stress and lack of energy. Sorry!

Since I'm always short of money (honestly, who isn't?), and can't seem to get a normal job, I'm going to beg you all to let me draw for moniez!

Or in other words --

COMMISSION ME!

I'll draw you just about anything, with a few exeptions:
I'll not draw anything homophobic, racist, etc., or anything with similar content or message. I'm fine with portraying these things, but I'll not draw anything promoting them. And no porn. Erotic, suggestive, ecchi, or whatever you wish to call it, is totally fine -- but no porn. Thank you.  
Also, I warn you -- if you ask me to draw something I'm bad at drawing, the result might not be the best. Go check my gallery to find out what I'm good at.
All commisions will be done digitally in Photoshop, unless otherwise specified.

PRICES</u>
(In US dollars and Swedish kronor.)

Simple sketch

- Portrait - $5 / 15kr
- Full body - $10 / 35kr
- Full scene - $15 / 70kr
- (+Character) - $3 / 15kr

Simple colour

- Portrait - $15 / 70kr
- Full body - $20 / 110kr
- Full scene - $30 / 180kr
- (+Character) - $5 / 35kr

Full colour

- Portrait - $20 / 110kr
- Full body - $35 / 180kr
- Full scene - $40 / 250kr
- (+Character) - $10 / 80kr

A portrait is a drawing of a single character from the bust and up.
A full body is a drawing of any character you want in any pose. Involves a simple background.
A full scene is a complex drawing of one or several characters actually doing something specific and/or interacting. This involves a full background.  
Extra characters in a picture will cost you extra money, as stated.

If you want something drawn that does not fit into these categories, or you don't know which one -- just ask and I'll tell you.

PAYMENT</u>

I would prefer paypal, but if that is impossible there is always old-fashioned snail-mail -- at your own risk, of course.

You will get to see a sample (small resolution, watermarked) of the finished picture before sending your payment. Once I recive the money, you will get the final image.

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If there is someone out there who is interested -- please, either send me an email at sara.mikaelsson@gmail.com, comment on this entry, or send me a note. Thank you for looking!

All right! So now the internet is finally up and running for real!
Ended up buying a 20m cable instead of the 15m I needed, because they seem to be extinct here in Eksjö. So the pile of cables below my desk is already at a critical level of mess. Oh well.

Anyway, I've moved in! Yay! It's purdy and pretty and kinda' small, and there are still a few things missing... but, but... I think the best to describe how I feel is:

So now I'm here waiting for the rest of the bunch to arrive so we can... Uh, I dunno, be crazy together! Yay!

Ey, people från Eksjö! Nån som har råd att gå på Eksjö stadsfest med mig för 440 spänn? 28-29 augusti? Det finns åtminståne några kul som spelar! Jag vill gå ut och ha kul!

Argh, insomnia. Argh, argh, argh.  

Man I'm tired. Time's 04:00 here, and it's light outside. I really should go to sleep before my parents wake up. They would not be happy. Argh.
I hate it when this happens. I did try to sleep, but it didn't work, so I started something stupid to make me sleepy and pass the time. Now I'm done. Time's 04:02. Argh.
Oh well, I'll upload the stupid thing anyway. A meme, and guess about what. Yeah, I'm a bit obsessed, don't kill me. I promise, I am just about do something original. I have a whole bunch of characters itching to be drawn. Problem is the story so far is nonexistant and the universe kinda' empty, and I suck at designing mechanical things, like, say, spaceships. The 'main' (first) character is a pilot. I cannot continue anything without knowing what her ship looks like. Argh.
Also, my inbox is messed up. Anyone else have the problem about not be notified of new messages, but still getting them? (That was hard to understand yes. Tired. Me. Is.)

Time is now 04:07. I will upload the meme thingy. Then I will sleep for three hours. God I'm stupid. Argh.

EDIT:
I was wrong. The time on my computer is all wonky again. The time must have been 05:00. Argh.

And so I'm back in dear old Sweden again.
I case anyone's been wondering were I've been, I've been to Poland and Crakow for a week now. I forgot to tell you, so, sorry about that. Now I'm available again!

Hmm... What else to say? I'm trying to enjoy my summer vacation, but I keep getting stressed out over silly things; everything from my birthday to mum's insisting on that we should visit relatives, to university applications and what makes a good person. Bah. I seriously need to chill out a bit.

Oh yeah! It's my birthday in, uh... 2 days? The 14th anyway. I'm turning 19. Creepy shit, I'm getting old. Older. Anyway, I don't want to be grown up an d take responsibility for my life. If I mess up, it's my fault. Oh horrible thought!

Alright!
So I finally answered and cleaned out all my messages... A bit late, perhaps. I'm a hopeless procastinator.

Anyways,
SUMMER HOLIDAYS! Which is awesome! The only this missing now is the actual summer... Oh well, the weather is nice right now, perhaps it will saty that way? Please?
I'm sitting here in my old appartment, which I'm leaving in... 6 days. It's almost a bit sad. I've actually lived here for almost a year now. On the other hand, I'll be getting my own little appartment in a month. Tiny, but mine.
And I have my new tablet! It is AWESOME! Now my photoshop just needs to stop hating me and my life will be complete. xD
So, anyway, tablet+vacation should equal loads of drawing! Cross your fingers!

EDIT:
Argh! I missed my 5000 mark with one stupid pageview! Le sigh. Still,
THANK YOU,
anyone who might read this!

All right, I decided to finally do this thing. And I decided to do it with Star Wars KOTOR (mostly so i have a good excuse to draw them. xD) There will be no complicated paintings, just simple sketches. Still, it'll probably keep me busy for awhile. Let's just hope I can focus enough to actually finish... >.<

Here's the list:

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Grey
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. 67%
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. Playing the Melody
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Wish me luck!

Okidoki, I finally have the energy to update DA again. Since my tablet broke I've haven't been active here at all... Sigh, I miss my tablet.
Anyway, I just needed to move the very depressing journal off my frontpage, and inform you that now I might actually reply to any messages you might send me.

And today, there's 27 days left to the summer holiday!

Oh, woe is me! Oh, what hath I done to deserve such cruel a fate? Why, oh why would the gods curse me so? My heart is broken, my soul in pain, for this my punishment is more than I can bear. Oh, my friends! Grieve with me on this most dreadful of days, for it is with a heavy and cold heart that I must make the following annoncement.
Alas! - it is so that my wacom pencil is staring to malfunction!
Oh, most deep and terrible woe is me!

EDIT:
It stopped working. Now all I can do is erase.
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My life is over.

EDIT2:
Damn, damn, damn, damn. I'll just have to steal Ninens comp when I get home. Damn, I really wanted to finish this crap I'm working on! Argh! I spent way too much time on it, I just want it to be finished! Argh! You know, it's one of those things you work on forever and they still don't turn out any good? I think I've redone on character's face at least 20 times... And now I can even continue! Blah! Blah blah blah!
Maybe I'll... Noooo! Argh! *dies* Stupid picture, finish yourself!!!!

...

Yes, I'm mad and I need venting.

Since the weather is sorta half crappy here today, my internet is finally working and I've replied to all my messages (lo and behold, a miracle!), I thought I'd give you all a little update!

So, yeah, I'm in Tunisia. It's awsome. We live in this über-classy hotel which scares me, and we get loads and loads of food and freetime. The only bad thing, I guess, is that the weather is kinda so-so. At least Elin thinks that's bad, because she can't work on her tan. Personally, I'm knida happy. I have to admit, hotel life is not made for me, but I doubt sushine would make it much funnier. >.<
So... What have we done? We actually went on this little arranged bus trip yesteday and the day before, which was loads of fun. We got to see the gladiator arena they use as model for the movie Gladiator, the very cool cave-homes of the Berber(sp?) people, some parts of Tantooine and Luke's home, loads of palm trees and oasises (that's supposed to be oasis in plural...), and, oh, we got to sit in the bus a lot. There was very little space. >.< Oh, and we got to ride dromedaries! And experience rain in Sahara! That's something, huh? We manage to pick the one day to go there when it actually rained. We pwn.
Eh... What more? I finished my english essay (which i think sucks, but I'm not sure what that means since I tend to think so), and I have so far read... eh, four books. None of which is my frech book that has to be done once I get home. *stabs the book*

I'm looking forward to getting back home, actually... I want to take a real long shower (all the water here is full of chlorine) and then go for a long, long walk... Then get back to school and work my ass off, or something!

And so I'm home again. Ahh... Time's way to late and I'm way to tierd, but I'm going to write this now anyway, 'cause otherwise I won't ever. Prepare for spelling and grammar horrors.

First; France.
What to say? Amazing, it has been. I have walked, and walked, and walked, and walked. And walked. My feet hurt, and my knees hurt, and my shoulders hurt, and damnit, my stomach hurts! But walking in Paris is not bad, I tell you. Humongous, beautiful city. And there was sun! And green stuff on the trees! And you know, like, people spoke french! And, like, they sorta understood me when I did too!
Honestly, I think I underestimate traveling. I've done it so much, I've come to learn that the only travelling that's important is the travelling you do on the inside. I mean, I can go to the other side of the world, but I still bring myself, and you can be surrounded by jungle or pines; still it's the people you're with that makes it worth it. So I find travelling, as in just going to a new place, kinda... useless. But then, for people who have not done any travelling... It must be amazing. To see something new, something different. To see yourself new, and different. To see all these places that suddenly become real, and not just pictures in some book... Oh, I don't know. I just hope you all get the oppourtunity to do something like this, and with such lovely people as I went with. It might be a bitch to wait for busses and planes and trains, but it's really is worth it.

Second; home.
I--- Sigh. As lovely as it is to get a break and get away, I really wish I could be home in Eksjö right now. I feel needed. Or at least like if I were there I could do a lot more good that here, 350 km away. And soon I'll be going even further, and I'm not even sure I'll have internet there. Sucks, it does. I know, I really should give the people around me more credit, they won't all fall to peices just because I'm not there, still, I'm a horrible mother-hen (argh-proverb-translation) and there is no use denying it. I feel like I left at a horrible time and that... that... I should just be there, because my friends are going trough though times, and I'm going to be basking the sun and that's just unfair. Sigh. I'll just... I'll be with you in your hearts, guys. Maybe I can transfer some sunshine telepathicly or something. And I do have a phone.
Bah, who knows, I'm probably over-reacting. I'm just worried, that's all. You won't hate me for it, do you?

Writing this from my hotelroom in France - I got intenet working, yay! Although I'm not sure how long it's going to last... Anyway, here I am, safe and sound (for the time at least). So far, we've been to Notre Dame and Saint-Chapelle, Museé d'Orsy (god I'm sure I spelt all that wrong, and we had some adventures trying to get home after there had been some sort of accident on our metro-line. That was fun. ^^
Now I'm friggin tierd and my knees hurt, but I need to find my friends and get me some dinner... Foood!!!! I hope teh internet won't quit on me, and if it doesn't, I'll be back later! xD

... I recently realized that I make a very bad man. This should be very obvious, at least to everyone who knows me and knows I'm a girl, yet it has taken me up to now to realize and come to terms with this fact. I fail at being male. There. In your face.

And now something completly different. The sports-holidays are upon us and it is wonderful. I have spent the last three days sneezing, coughing and crying, but i will not let that stop me from enjoying my vacation. Had some visitors yesterday, and that was really nice... (I'm eating the leftovers right now) I realize that as much as I love my classmates, it's always nice to meet and talk to someone "new", to get some new input. In other words, I'm feeling terribly energetic. I'm creative! I'm inspired! I'm social! I'm happy! I'm wearing a turban! I'm also sneezing, coughing and crying, but, as one says in swedish, "petitesser"!

Oh and one last thing. Go herre, [link], and answer the questions. Sara needs your advice!

You know, every time turn around, the world gets more complicated. It's like every time I blink, someone mashes everything through a meatgrinder, and suddenly, the parts that seemed to fit so well just don't anymore.
I know how I will live my live. It won't be grand. It won't be adventurous. I wanted that once, but I know now that if it's not forced upon me, it will not happen. My crisis of faith won't be the woman I love dying even though I could have saved her. It won't be death, destruction, or anything at all really. It'll be a few lines of text, grinding my world just one time to much, and the pieces will be too small. Someday.
I used to belive things were simple. Mind you though, I never had the delusion that they were easy. But now it's like my brain won't keep up anymore, and all is just a jumble. Or, maybe that's because I haven't really slept much. I should, but who could possibly sleep when they have just released a monster, had thier faith crushed and the responsiblity to build a just world out of ashes thrown on their shoulders?